"I shall wink." He says, "You can see me blinking through your mask, yes?"
He should. It isn't so difficult, the way the lines rest against the face, the way he'd used Dorian's khol to darken his lashes and offer an even greater rakish appearance to himself. As though he needs it with the cape and the fitted trousers. One thing he can take as a point of pride- all of his entourage is ridiculously attractive. Even Alistair. The short coat does offer the best view to what he'd mentioned before- a well fed Alistair has a well rounded ass. There is a moment's temptation to goose him, to add to the joke- but the music is high and they are averting murder, cutting through the game's bullshit like a dagger, and Alistair seemed...unsettled, somewhat, by being here.
Too many Orlesians and questions about the blight, perhaps. He takes mercy.
A considering look, and then Alistair lets go of his shoulder to adjust his mask by the beak. Not much. Fractionally upward, to give him a better line of sight through the eye holes. Maybe touching masks is rude in Orlais; he hasn't spent enough time around the nobility to know and, also, doesn't care.
He tries to relax. This is harmless. A prank--and not one Zevran is playing on him, one he's included in, so not even his easily outraged feelings can be hurt. The music is loud enough and the dance is mobile enough that he doesn't feel like he's risking any matters of security when he asks, "Are we almost done?"
With the sneaking. The murder. The party. He would like to leave.
"Just about. I will probably be making some manner of quiet dramatic unveiling to Gaspard and Empress Celene shortly, after which there will be a more public unveiling and apprehension of the true assassin at work here. And then? I put the fear of the maker into the Empress and we have time for, perhaps, one last dance before we sweep out of this place and go somewhere I can take this mask off." All light and bright and easy, as though discussing the weather. Not many can read lips, he's learned, but tone? Is simple enough.
He draws Alistair close and, true to his word, gives him a wink before he attempts the dip.
It is quite a strain upon his shoulders- but he's carried heavier things for far less cause. "And then it is celebratory wine and ravishments for all."
There's a moment--because Alistair is helping, one foot braced back to support himself, arm tight enough around Zevran's shoulders that he's somewhat more manageable than a sack of potatoes--when the weight is balanced and no one has to fall down on their arse in front of everyone who's anyone in Orlais.
Then Zevran says ravishments. Ravishments while leaning over him, and Alistair helpless and dependent in a way he might like-like or that might just make him nauseated: the swooping, sinking feeling in his stomach is open for interpretation. And it will have to be interpreted later, because his braced leg slips out from under him.
The upside is that this will provide a reasonable excuse for the blushing. The downside is that he's moving to the Sunless Lands and never coming back.
Braced as he might have been he can't very well hold up against the sudden slump of Alistair's weight without warning. Down they go and he is just able to catch himself with some manner of grace rather than tumbling down upon him entirely. THere is the expected spatter of laughter but Zevran, breathless and crackling with laughter, leans up to peer into Alistair's eyes as though they are the only ones in the room.
Falling flat should be a reasonable excuse for his breath catching, too, in addition to the blushing. For not being able to move right away. But when he does move it's up onto his elbows, nearer Zevran's face, managing a smirk and an air of challenge. Blushing, yes. Virgin, no.
"And I said I couldn't dance," he says, pauses for a second to choose an appropriate retaliatory pet name--meatball is given brief consideration--"dearest."
For whatever game Zevran is playing. It's above Alistair's head, but he can try to keep up. He twists sideways and out from beneath Zevran, and he's still mottled red everywhere his skin is visible--because of the crowd's tittering, arguably, except he gives them a bow, with a performer's wide-sweeping flourish, like a classroom of snickering students just before he's dragged off to sit very still on his knees and meditate on the sanctity of the Chant. It's Zevran he doesn't look at.
There is something more than mere playing, here. Something more than the joke and the act they put on for the laughing crowd, waiting with baited breath. Somewhere distantly Zevran hears a hissed 'kiss him' from one of the nobles and he does in fact give the idea some consideration. Just a touch, before Alistair is pulling away and the moment is gone. Likewise he sweeps into a bow with a flourish of his cape, hooking an arm around Alistair's waist to take him off the floor.
Now, perhaps, it was time enough, their backs to the congregation, in full view-
To let that hand slip down and casually palm Alistair's ass.
"Keep walking, we're almost to the alcove." A soft aside murmured with all the warmth and desire he would give a lover's endearment.
To say he jumps would be an exaggeration, but he certainly straightens like he's been struck by a bolt, walking more rapidly for two or three steps before the surprise fades and he shoots Zevran a look. The parts of his face that are visible are still splotchy, and now mildly betrayed as well, like a dog that doesn't know why--why a treat is being withheld, that's the best analogy here--until Zevran's murmur makes the put-upon set of his mouth loosen.
He goes to the alcove. "I'd say they'll be talking about that for weeks," he says, mostly just to talk, unsure what Zevran plans to do with him and unable to leave a good stretch of silence unmarred, "but under the circumstances..."
They'll probably be talking about the assassination plot.
Once they reach the alcove and some manner of privacy Zevran lets his hand drop and steps away, giving Alistair his space back. "Now they shall assume anything we spoke of was mere lover's chatter rather than planning anything nefarious."
Because the two are mutually exclusive, of course.
"I know I did not warn you for that last but- I have crossed no lines, yes?" if he has he'd apologize- now that Alistair has expressed some interest (perhaps) in men he is no longer certain how far he might push in his teasing.
"No, ah," Alistair says, hands spreading in the air level with his hips, "what's mine is yours, ser. By all means."
It's the worst line he's ever used. Worse still for how true it is. As soon as they're out of here and he has a moment alone he's going to beat his head against a wall. For now he's still managing to smile, splotches and all, while he sinks deeper out of sight. Maybe he an stay here the rest of the night.
"So generous." Zev reaches up to pat his shoulder- companionable rather than condescending. "I've others to dance with, I'm sure, Cullen to save, a plot to thwart, and an Empire to bend to my will."
The low crackling of laughter heard after might be just on this side of too pleased. Should anyone be this cheerful when contemplating murder? Probably not! "Ah, this is better than murdering corrupt politicians in Antiva City!"
It takes a moment for him to clear his throat and straighten out the lay of Alistair's coat. "Of course not. You never have and likely never will."
Alistair shakes his head, a gesture that's equal parts fond exasperation and token protest against the idea of murdering anyone being fun, and stands still to endure Zevran's fussing over his coat. He's of half a mind to rumple Zevran in revenge—make him look kissed, maybe, before he goes back out in front of everyone, but he can't sort the funny prank from the petty jealous display in his head. He keeps his hands at his sides and smiles a little wider at the trust.
When Zevran's done he pushed a fist against his shoulder—not a punch, friendly punches are for people closer to Alistair's size—and says, "Go get 'em. If you need me," which he won't, shouldn't, but just in case, "I'll be hiding behind Leliana."
Leliana, who touches his forearm when he settles in to stand next to her and gives him a look of entertained pity, then makes keen observations about the local fashion while he pretends to listen and watches Zevran dance with people considerably less oafish. But perhaps slightly more likely to hurt him anyway, Alistair supposes. Maybe it balances out.
It goes well, all told. He sweeps out, he dances, saves Cullen, vanishes into the shadows and only has to endure a few quiet cracks about 'teasing the poor fellow, honestly' from Dorian before the usual excuse is offered. They are not like that, Alistair prefers women, there is nothing of the sort about. Espionage is difficult enough without someone commenting on his lovelife, especially from someone that is somewhat a part of the same.
Somewhere between the blackmail and the grand reveal, the terribly unfortunate loss of Gaspard's life (It was self defense, you see) and a quiet confirmation that Celene will get her shit together or there would be consequences far, far worse than death should she fail to do so. It is gratifying to see that tense fear, that awareness that no. Birala is in his pocket, not hers. As though he'd ever hand someone back to the loving arms of a toxic woman.
The Inquisition saves Orlais and triumphs, hurrah! Go team! And there is, in fact, time for one last dance after everything, speaking with Morrigan, watching The Bull and Dorian settle in close and crackling with sentiment on the dance floor. At the quiet balcony he's claimed for himself he waits for a short while. To catch his breath. To peel off the mask and set it aside and consider all the risks he'd taken. The payout had been marvelous, yes, but-
Alistair sees Dorian and Bull begin to peel away from each other, sharing a look, and maybe it would be sweet of them to go after him. But Alistair is closer. Or getting closer, rapidly. He passes them before they've come to a conclusion and turns to walk backwards, head and eyebrows slanted into a playful, smirky glare. He points from his eyes to them, both of them, fingers wiggling sideways so they know they're both included.
Friendly, all of it. His concern for Zev, his inflated and posturing jealousy. He knows what they think, since Zevran told him, and right now he doesn't care. He might not be sleeping with him, but he was still here first.
Once he's outside he pushes his mask back off his face like a visor and nudges Zevran's calf with the toe of his boot.
"I think," he says with drawling import, "you should have given Orlais to Ferelden. I bet you could have. I bet you could have done it and made them say merci afterwards."
Whatever subtle drama plays out behind him- Zevran is unaware. It will only make the pointed commentary and looks later all the more amusing, he's certain. Footsteps and his shoulders go straighter for half a second before he places the gait.
Familiar as breathing, that stride, and the tension uncurls as though it'd never been. Alistair does not need him to be anything but himself.
"Anora might think I'm trying to flirt, an then Jonas would have to try to get one up on me." Which would be impossible but- well. Jonas. He turns his head enough to see him, really see him in the finery and moonlight and wonder again perhaps he could...but they are not that way. Alistair has a limited amount of time left. So does he, even if it seems less and less impossible with every win against Corypheus they manage. "I will take having the Empress in my back pocket and be content."
"If you like thinking small, maybe," Alistair says, all fake sniffing Orlesian-y disdain. He puts a hand around onto Zevran's shoulder and gives it a massaging sort of squeeze. It's been a long night. And Zevran is definitely more famous than he is now—probably has been for ages, probably more famous than Cousland—but he doubts that's something Zevran wants to hear. "Are you all right?"
"Sometimes it is about the bigger picture, when you think small." The elves, he'd thought. Put himself in their shoes, thought of their lives, their deaths. Counted himself among their number for the first time since he was a child, truly. Acted on their behalf and it still feels strange to have done so. But here he has leave to lean, to tip his cheek against Alistair's shoulder and sigh. "I am waiting for the other shoe to drop. I cannot feel as though things went too well, here. There must be something I am missing."
It's half subconscious, the way Alistair's hand slides down Zevran's shoulder to seek out his wrist; the intent to comfort comes first, and it isn't until he's lifting the hand up to hold against Zevran's chest, part of a one-armed hug, that he realizes it's the glowing one. That's the other shoe.
He doesn't say it.
"You're missing how great you are," he does say. "It went well because you did well. Sometimes it works out that way. I'm told, anyway."
Ah, yes. The hand that will kill him. He ignores it for the moment in favor of enjoying this closeness. Perhaps he does not have someone in the way Bull and Dorian do, perhaps he does not share the sweetened glances and heartfelt poetry of Josephine and Blackwall or the playful banter of Sera and Dagna- but he has this.
And this is enough.
"Alright. That sounds quite untrue, but alright." He crackles a soft laugh, squeezing Alistair's hand.
Alistair knocks him with his hip in revenge for the skepticism, but he's smiling, even though his chest aches in a way it hasn't since he was an initiate in the abbey, waiting on the edge of the training field while everyone else was picked before him. Not love, nothing noble, just stupid self-involved hunger for something out of reach. He can ignore it.
"You should teach me the dance you did with Comtess Mourier," he says, stepping away and pulling Zevran along, away from the wall, unfurling like a tapestry—or. "Or," he says, because he's being selfish, if not transparent. He leans sideways to look over the edge of the balcony. "It isn't far. If we climb down and sneak around to the gates you might not have to talk to anyone else."
"I do not know if you are flexible enough for that one-" He says, allowing himself to be led with half a smile and his mask dangling from his fingertips. He should dance. Stride out the conquering hero.
Or.
"..." He peers over the edge alongside Alistair, gauging what path they might take. "Can you make the jump? I cannot catch you if you slip."
"I can do it," Alistair says. Probably. Maybe. He glances sideways, examining Zevran's face in his peripheral vision, the calculation lending a spark that makes him look more like Zev than the Inquisitor.
Yep. Alistair looks back toward the balcony doors to make sure no one is hovering in them, then climbs onto the other side of the balcony rail and holds himself there by his hands, slightly leant back, one eyebrow arched in invitation. Some things are worth risking death for.
It's foolish and selfish and more than a little childish- and yet he slips his mask back on his head to wear it in the same way Alistair wears his and flips over the edge, beginning the climb down.
Leliana and Josephine will be furious.
"Last one to the garden-" He says, picking his hand and foot holds with care. "Explains to Leliana why we ran."
That's not fair. That's one of the least fair things Alistair has ever heard.
"I'm going to tell her it was your idea," he says, already trailing behind, less trusting of his own hands and feet. "I'm going to tell her—I'm telling her you bullied me into it."
Empty threats. He can't lie to Leliana. She knows all. And he isn't quite so resigned to losing that he doesn't drop from the wall to the ground a little prematurely, landing heavily and falling onto his knees to compensate for the impact. Fine, though. Huffing quiet laughter more than he's wincing.
"Liar!" He crackles a soft laugh, leaping away from the wall- less landing and more rolling once he hits the ground to spring up on his feet. This truly is not a fair contest at all, but it is fun.
It is harmless.
It is freeing in ways he does not wish to look at and for a moment he feels more himself than he has all night. Not The Ombra Nera, not The Inquisitor, not even Zevran. He feels like Zev.
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Date: 2016-07-12 01:49 am (UTC)He should. It isn't so difficult, the way the lines rest against the face, the way he'd used Dorian's khol to darken his lashes and offer an even greater rakish appearance to himself. As though he needs it with the cape and the fitted trousers. One thing he can take as a point of pride- all of his entourage is ridiculously attractive. Even Alistair. The short coat does offer the best view to what he'd mentioned before- a well fed Alistair has a well rounded ass. There is a moment's temptation to goose him, to add to the joke- but the music is high and they are averting murder, cutting through the game's bullshit like a dagger, and Alistair seemed...unsettled, somewhat, by being here.
Too many Orlesians and questions about the blight, perhaps. He takes mercy.
For now.
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Date: 2016-07-12 03:31 am (UTC)He tries to relax. This is harmless. A prank--and not one Zevran is playing on him, one he's included in, so not even his easily outraged feelings can be hurt. The music is loud enough and the dance is mobile enough that he doesn't feel like he's risking any matters of security when he asks, "Are we almost done?"
With the sneaking. The murder. The party. He would like to leave.
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Date: 2016-07-12 03:37 am (UTC)He draws Alistair close and, true to his word, gives him a wink before he attempts the dip.
It is quite a strain upon his shoulders- but he's carried heavier things for far less cause. "And then it is celebratory wine and ravishments for all."
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Date: 2016-07-12 03:49 am (UTC)Then Zevran says ravishments. Ravishments while leaning over him, and Alistair helpless and dependent in a way he might like-like or that might just make him nauseated: the swooping, sinking feeling in his stomach is open for interpretation. And it will have to be interpreted later, because his braced leg slips out from under him.
The upside is that this will provide a reasonable excuse for the blushing. The downside is that he's moving to the Sunless Lands and never coming back.
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Date: 2016-07-12 04:11 am (UTC)For the moment? He is the only one that matters.
"I said I would need help holding you up, Bello."
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Date: 2016-07-12 04:36 am (UTC)"And I said I couldn't dance," he says, pauses for a second to choose an appropriate retaliatory pet name--meatball is given brief consideration--"dearest."
For whatever game Zevran is playing. It's above Alistair's head, but he can try to keep up. He twists sideways and out from beneath Zevran, and he's still mottled red everywhere his skin is visible--because of the crowd's tittering, arguably, except he gives them a bow, with a performer's wide-sweeping flourish, like a classroom of snickering students just before he's dragged off to sit very still on his knees and meditate on the sanctity of the Chant. It's Zevran he doesn't look at.
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Date: 2016-07-12 04:41 am (UTC)Now, perhaps, it was time enough, their backs to the congregation, in full view-
To let that hand slip down and casually palm Alistair's ass.
"Keep walking, we're almost to the alcove." A soft aside murmured with all the warmth and desire he would give a lover's endearment.
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Date: 2016-07-12 05:05 am (UTC)Hand on his ass.
Maker's breath.
To say he jumps would be an exaggeration, but he certainly straightens like he's been struck by a bolt, walking more rapidly for two or three steps before the surprise fades and he shoots Zevran a look. The parts of his face that are visible are still splotchy, and now mildly betrayed as well, like a dog that doesn't know why--why a treat is being withheld, that's the best analogy here--until Zevran's murmur makes the put-upon set of his mouth loosen.
He goes to the alcove. "I'd say they'll be talking about that for weeks," he says, mostly just to talk, unsure what Zevran plans to do with him and unable to leave a good stretch of silence unmarred, "but under the circumstances..."
They'll probably be talking about the assassination plot.
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Date: 2016-07-12 05:18 am (UTC)Because the two are mutually exclusive, of course.
"I know I did not warn you for that last but- I have crossed no lines, yes?" if he has he'd apologize- now that Alistair has expressed some interest (perhaps) in men he is no longer certain how far he might push in his teasing.
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Date: 2016-07-12 05:26 am (UTC)It's the worst line he's ever used. Worse still for how true it is. As soon as they're out of here and he has a moment alone he's going to beat his head against a wall. For now he's still managing to smile, splotches and all, while he sinks deeper out of sight. Maybe he an stay here the rest of the night.
"I didn't hurt you, did I?"
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Date: 2016-07-12 05:40 am (UTC)The low crackling of laughter heard after might be just on this side of too pleased. Should anyone be this cheerful when contemplating murder? Probably not! "Ah, this is better than murdering corrupt politicians in Antiva City!"
It takes a moment for him to clear his throat and straighten out the lay of Alistair's coat. "Of course not. You never have and likely never will."
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Date: 2016-07-12 08:26 pm (UTC)When Zevran's done he pushed a fist against his shoulder—not a punch, friendly punches are for people closer to Alistair's size—and says, "Go get 'em. If you need me," which he won't, shouldn't, but just in case, "I'll be hiding behind Leliana."
Leliana, who touches his forearm when he settles in to stand next to her and gives him a look of entertained pity, then makes keen observations about the local fashion while he pretends to listen and watches Zevran dance with people considerably less oafish. But perhaps slightly more likely to hurt him anyway, Alistair supposes. Maybe it balances out.
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Date: 2016-07-12 09:31 pm (UTC)Somewhere between the blackmail and the grand reveal, the terribly unfortunate loss of Gaspard's life (It was self defense, you see) and a quiet confirmation that Celene will get her shit together or there would be consequences far, far worse than death should she fail to do so. It is gratifying to see that tense fear, that awareness that no. Birala is in his pocket, not hers. As though he'd ever hand someone back to the loving arms of a toxic woman.
The Inquisition saves Orlais and triumphs, hurrah! Go team! And there is, in fact, time for one last dance after everything, speaking with Morrigan, watching The Bull and Dorian settle in close and crackling with sentiment on the dance floor. At the quiet balcony he's claimed for himself he waits for a short while. To catch his breath. To peel off the mask and set it aside and consider all the risks he'd taken. The payout had been marvelous, yes, but-
It weighs upon him after the fact
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Date: 2016-07-12 10:21 pm (UTC)Friendly, all of it. His concern for Zev, his inflated and posturing jealousy. He knows what they think, since Zevran told him, and right now he doesn't care. He might not be sleeping with him, but he was still here first.
Once he's outside he pushes his mask back off his face like a visor and nudges Zevran's calf with the toe of his boot.
"I think," he says with drawling import, "you should have given Orlais to Ferelden. I bet you could have. I bet you could have done it and made them say merci afterwards."
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Date: 2016-07-12 10:32 pm (UTC)Familiar as breathing, that stride, and the tension uncurls as though it'd never been. Alistair does not need him to be anything but himself.
"Anora might think I'm trying to flirt, an then Jonas would have to try to get one up on me." Which would be impossible but- well. Jonas. He turns his head enough to see him, really see him in the finery and moonlight and wonder again perhaps he could...but they are not that way. Alistair has a limited amount of time left. So does he, even if it seems less and less impossible with every win against Corypheus they manage. "I will take having the Empress in my back pocket and be content."
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Date: 2016-07-13 12:17 am (UTC)He doesn't say it.
"You're missing how great you are," he does say. "It went well because you did well. Sometimes it works out that way. I'm told, anyway."
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Date: 2016-07-13 12:26 am (UTC)And this is enough.
"Alright. That sounds quite untrue, but alright." He crackles a soft laugh, squeezing Alistair's hand.
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Date: 2016-07-13 01:08 am (UTC)"You should teach me the dance you did with Comtess Mourier," he says, stepping away and pulling Zevran along, away from the wall, unfurling like a tapestry—or. "Or," he says, because he's being selfish, if not transparent. He leans sideways to look over the edge of the balcony. "It isn't far. If we climb down and sneak around to the gates you might not have to talk to anyone else."
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Date: 2016-07-13 01:45 am (UTC)Or.
"..." He peers over the edge alongside Alistair, gauging what path they might take. "Can you make the jump? I cannot catch you if you slip."
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Date: 2016-07-13 02:00 am (UTC)Yep. Alistair looks back toward the balcony doors to make sure no one is hovering in them, then climbs onto the other side of the balcony rail and holds himself there by his hands, slightly leant back, one eyebrow arched in invitation. Some things are worth risking death for.
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Date: 2016-07-13 02:06 am (UTC)Leliana and Josephine will be furious.
"Last one to the garden-" He says, picking his hand and foot holds with care. "Explains to Leliana why we ran."
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Date: 2016-07-13 02:30 am (UTC)"I'm going to tell her it was your idea," he says, already trailing behind, less trusting of his own hands and feet. "I'm going to tell her—I'm telling her you bullied me into it."
Empty threats. He can't lie to Leliana. She knows all. And he isn't quite so resigned to losing that he doesn't drop from the wall to the ground a little prematurely, landing heavily and falling onto his knees to compensate for the impact. Fine, though. Huffing quiet laughter more than he's wincing.
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Date: 2016-07-13 02:40 am (UTC)It is harmless.
It is freeing in ways he does not wish to look at and for a moment he feels more himself than he has all night. Not The Ombra Nera, not The Inquisitor, not even Zevran. He feels like Zev.
He's missed being Zev.
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