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"I told Leliana to be sure." Whatever happened to him, they needed to live. If he failed, they could rally the rest, could pull this forward into something else. She'd understood. However strange he might find her now- she understands. For that there are no words he can say to express his gratitude.

Though it probably isn't what Alistair wants to hear.

He sags where he stands for a moment, for two, out this far he's sure most aren't lingering for some manner of glimpse of him, and if they saw this? He wouldn't care. He is allowed a few moments to be mortal. To be Zevran. Of course as soon as he's comfortable Alistair pushes him back and the blanket falls, wracking Zevran with minute tremors he fights to suppress out of habit. "Do what?"

Oh. "I was out of luck a decade ago. This is all just...extra."

"That is not comforting."

And it's Zevran's job to comfort him. Clearly. In addition to carrying the hopes of all of Thedas in his freaky glowing hand. The moment when Alistair realizes he's being an unfair bastard is visible, eyes unnarrowing and gaze shifting vaguely toward his shoulder, where Alistair still has a firm grip on him.

Something shakes. It takes him a second to realize it's Zevran and not his own hands.

He lets go. Fetches the blanket. Drops it over Zevran, head and all, like an unfitted cloak.

"If you do it again, I'm going to sing," he threatens.

"I do not know what you want me to say." It is unfair- and Alistair knows he is being unfair and Zevran is too cold, too overwhelmed, too afraid of this thing in his hand and the rather sudden enormity of what's before him that needs to be done to try to think of the most soothing words for Alistair's distress.

It should be easy but- it isn't. Just this once he wishes the tables turned- that he might lean and Alistair might hold fast. Perhaps that, too, is unfair of him and his shoulder slump, curling in against the cold. The thought occurs that he should return to the fire when the blanket is dumped upon him again- tugging it so he can peer through the makeshift hood as he wraps it tight about himself takes but a moment. "...That is not nearly as terrifying as you might think."

Alistair wants him to promise not to die, possibly ever, but especially not now, while everything is terrible and Zevran is his last great hope, too. But he's reached the limit of selfishness. He shakes his head, lips pursed to hold back the demands, and then says, "I was worried. That's all."

But still: no more heroics. (Ha. Ha ha.)

"I'll bow," Alistair piles on, since singing isn't scary enough. "I'll get on my knees and look at you like you're a god."

And that wasn't intentional, swear to Andraste. He doesn't even realize. He switches with ease from threats to a genuine offer, tipping his chin back toward the fire.

"I'll sit with you."

"So was I." He thinks nothing of being that honest, that vulnerable with Alistair. Who else knows him best? "There was a blighted dragon and me without a ballista."

Which had worked well enough a decade ago but not half so well now. It's an easy thing to think, plans to make for wherever they end up- thoughts that stutter to a stop abruptly at that particular mental image. Had he blood left in him he'd blush. But- fortunately, all he does is cough. "There are better things you could be doing while on your knees, Alistair."

Because innuendo is expected and easy and he can paint on the usual smile and lift his brows just so, even as he shuffles to the fire. So much snow. Why are they hiding in the mountains? Why did he decide to bury himself in an avalanche? "Why can't the world ever be ending where it is warm?"

Alistair manages a smile, at ballista—nostalgic, fond, but mostly still worried and mildly put out. "Next time." Maybe Zevran should never travel anywhere there isn't a ballista—so basically nowhere that hasn't been carefully planned for in advance—ever again.

What Zevran is saying about knees doesn't fully register until there are eyebrows to go with it. Then he laughs and flicks him lightly on the back of his head, barely enough to be felt through the blanket. If Alistair blushes, it's lost to how red his face already is, cold and wind-chapped and recently mottled by crying or the effort not to.

"Because it's the hero's lot to suffer," he says, sing-song, clearing snow off one of the low boulders that's guarding the fire from the wind before he sits down on it. There's room beside him. Or in front of him, where he's blocking the wind now, too, with the broad span of his back. "To overcome. The cold is the real dragon you have to slay."

Nonsense. But not accusatory, angry nonsense, so hopefully it's an improvement.

"I really do wish people would stop calling me that." Something he'd told Jonas ages ago. 'Have you never heard the tales? The hero always dies'. It'd been heroic Grey Wardens in that particular instance, of course, but the point remains. If he is the hero of this tail rather than the dashing love interest or the comedic side kick-

He would die.

Resigning himself to that would be no fun at all. Even now he thinks 'ah, Cassandra is clearly the leading lady, ah, Cullen has all the marks of a hero' rather than slot himself in that particular role. It is easier. Still, he shudders more from cold than fear and steps closer to the fire, slotting himself in front of Alistair as though they'd planned this thing, Leans back against him because for once Mother Giselle can look scandalized at something else.

He needs this. Something solid and warm and alive at his back. "I do not think setting fire to the mountains would help save the world."

"It might take care of your hero problem, at least," Alistair says, dropping his arms to dangle over Zevran's shoulders. It would be nice to say that he doesn't hesitate for a moment to worry about how it looks—not for his own sake, he doesn't care, he has the luxury of not caring—before deciding that the corpsey-looking spirit boy and the Tevinter in the camp are probably keeping the gossipmongers preoccupied. For now. It would also be nice to say that he goes along with it for the sake of being comforting and not being comforted.

Alas.

"Do you want to talk about it?" he asks, looking past Zevran's blanket-covered head to the fire. "Or we could wager how long it will take for you to get the—who do you like most? The Qunari?"

He'll worry about it later, the way they look. But Vivienne isn't staring and Bull is preoccupied with his chargers- of the whole lot those are the largest threats to his reputation as this fabled herald and Alistair's life. Madame de Fer would have a field day if it appeared they were more than friends, the Herald and Cailan's bastard.

...then again Varric might be one to avoid as well, lest he get ideas for another romance serial.

It is some manner of sign when he does not leap upon the subject immediately, snorting instead. "I have too much on my mind to consider how long it might take me to seduce someone Alistair."

Alistair says, "I'd give it an hour," out of stubbornness, a refusal to let things change too much. Some, though. He doesn't press beyond that. "What did that Solad want?"

"I should be warm enough to imagine it then, certainly." He manages, for Alistair, a faint twist of laughter. Let it be the cold, let it be the shock. "Mmm? Something about scouting to the north, something about a possible fortification unknown to man. Which is highly suspicious when you take into account his dreamwalking ways and how he just happens to know such useful information that we need. Doesn't that sound a little familiar?"

Morrigan, with her last moment ritual. Morrigan with the lore and the means to make certain the Wardens succeed. Morrigan whom he has not seen nor heard from in quite some time, but there are curious rumors in Orlais.

But it does strike him as terribly familiar.

"Mmm."

Complications. He doesn't want more complications. He wants to sit here and put his chin on Zevran's head and let the green ebb and flow of the light in his hand and the stupid song in Alistair's head and the fire coalesce into something soothing instead of distracting and scary. It might be impossible, period, but it's definitely impossible while also thinking about Morrigan.

"Maybe the dreamwalking is how he found it," he offers. "He seems nice. But if you think he's hiding something I can hold him down and you can rub snow on his head until he talks."

"I do not think that would work all that well, tempting as it may be." He sighs, letting his head thud back against Alistair's chest. "...I am going to have to play the long game."

A beat.

"I hate playing the long game." Too much could go wrong, he'd have to keep ahead of everyone else and- there was a reason Rinna handled the planning, the gaming. A reason Zevran slipped in where he was told. Over a Decade later and it is difficult on his own- not impossible, but. Difficult. "You can do your part by reminding everyone how terrible I was at trying to assassinate you and Jonas. The less guile they think I have? The safer I will be."

Bull won't buy it, but that is a thought for another time.

Alistair huffs, just short of a proper laugh. It was a very shoddy attempt. Zevran could have done better. He could definitely do better now. "I'll do a reenactment," he promises—honestly, he will—and settles one arm around Zevran's torso more firmly. To keep him warm. "Do they know about the Crows? Other than Leliana."

"Vivienne. Josephine. The Bull. Cole." Who knew by reaching into his mind and picking at old ghosts and wounds and saying things on the road like 'Hair red like blood on the cobblestones- is it the hair or the blood?' making him fight off old memories while they fight demons.

Fun times.

"The rest- they need to hope. The token attempts at reminding them I'm just an elf have not exactly gone well. This, I think, will only make it more difficult. So let them think me immune." One hand slips down to rest on Alistair's. For warmth.

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Zevran is broad-enough shouldered as far as elves go, but they're still pretty narrow shoulders to be carrying all that weight. Belatedly, Alistair feels like an asshole for having been upset. Which is why he twists his hand around to catch and cover Zevran's—that and the warmth.

"Do the Crows know about you?" Follow-up question. "They wouldn't try anything now, would they?"

There's a half startled moment before he curls his fingers against Alistair's hand. Squeezes gently to remind himself that this is real, that he did not die, that one thing is not so strange.

That, perhaps, he might live long enough to see these impossible things done.

"Yes. I have not exactly been hiding." A beat. "They would. They have not yet. Leliana knows to mind any that come to the Inquisition. Bull, as well, knows to keep an eye out."

"An eye," Alistair echoes, quiet but unmistakably (and inappropriately) tickled. An eye, because he just has the one, right? Get it?

Not the time. He knows.

"I don't suppose you could negotiate a ceasefire for now," he says. "It's not in their interest to have that Corypheus fellow running around and these rifts open all over Thedas, either. Surely."

It twists a laugh out of him, that. Soft and strained but- a laugh none the less. "Ah, but now I am the supposed Herald. It would be a feather in their cap unless I make myself a greater political entity. It is impolitic to take contracts on wardens. There is no true precedent for being someone with a glowing green hand that seals holes in the fade. Aside from that- I'd heard rumors of Tevinter mages wandering about Antiva. This is...not so small a thing, whatever it is."

No easy solution. Fine. There never is one. But Alistair is disgruntled about it, anyway, briefly ducking his head down alongside Zevran's, nose to shoulder, to make a frustrated sound. Tevinters should stay in Tevinter. That's not xenophobia, it's just practical.

When he lifts his head, a passing scout glances at them and does a double-take. Not at him—at Zevran, maybe his hand. Maybe a bit at the fact he's using Alistair as an armchair. Alistair doesn't move. "He's Antivan," he says, snappish, which should explain everything, and she hastens to keep walking.

He feels a little bad. A very little.

"You should probably get some more sleep."

It's a quiet sound that Zevran echos, distantly amused as he recalls many a time that same whining kept him from losing his mind in the deep roads. Fondness twists deep and he slips a hand (the glowing one) up to comb his fingers through Alistair's hair in a soothing pet.

It will work out, one way or the other.

When he lifts his head Zevran's hand does not follow, sliding to rest against the side of his face for half a heartbeat before he turns it out to wiggle his fingers at the scout. That had, for a moment, looked far too intimate.

"There will be rumors within the hour, I hope you know. But excelent excuse- I should use it more often. 'Herald you cannot have wine with breakfast' 'Yes I can, I'm Antivan.' 'Zevran you cannot lock the advisors out of the war room for a game of Wicked Grace' 'Yes I can, I'm Antivan.'" Far easier to joke and ignore the commentary about sleep. He does not need sleep.

Alistair grins—wide, genuine, the equivalent of a laugh from a man who's fairly stingy with the real deal—and nudges Zevran with a knee. Or a thigh. Actually. It reminds him to stop grinning, and to let go of Zevran's hand. "Sorry. It can't be the worst thing anyone's ever said about you, though," he says. He's aiming for light, but he can't help sounding bothered. He's brought into trouble along already without adding more. "Close, maybe, but not the worst."

"It is not me that I worry about." He has been called and had said of him a great many things throughout his life. The sudden uptick of awe and wonder, of respect and positive ideals attributed to him recently has been disconcerting. Good, familiar 'oh Zevran is bedding so and so did you hear' gossip would be more than welcome-

If it were not with Alistair. He does not need to complicate his life.

There's a soft sound when Alistair lets go of his hand, questioning- but he does not reach again. Take what you are given and be glad for it. Of course Alistair is bothered, why would he want it said of him that he sleeps with an Antivan Assassin? "I'll make certain your name is kept out of it."

Alistair hums agreeably at that first part—of course Zevran isn't worried about himself, surely he's concerned about the Inquisition, the trust he needs people to put in him, the story that's being peddled—but the agreeableness evaporates as Zevran goes on. Partly. He still sounds mostly friendly when he says, "I don't give a blighted nug butt—" Yes, he said that. On purpose. Cheer up, go on. "—about my name, Zev."

Even if the world weren't falling apart. He briefly, wildly considers dipping Zevran sideways and kissing him on the mouth to prove the point, but the idea sticks uncomfortably in his chest, a lot like the feeling he gets when something he can't sense makes a noise in the dark, before it can be turned into action.

"I'm only thinking of that poor Qunari's heart. The Bull. That one."

What was that? "Blighted...nug butt?"

He can't quite make that make sense. "...you have been spending time with Leliana, haven't you?"

And that image does warm him somewhat, his oldest friends laughing and teasing as they once had years ago. Something closer to normal. They had, all of them, saved the world once before. Surely they can manage it again.

"So shall I take this as your blessing, then? To find comfort in his massive, shapely arms? Perhaps I had been eyeing that Tevinter, mm? Or Cassandra." Teasing, all, but- nudging at this thing seems wiser than thinking of what comes in the morning.

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"Solad"

So very lad

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