Yes, well isn't that it? You'd want someone you'd trust with and do certain things to, how to say, draw out pleasure from the pain I suppose. It's difficult to feel at ease otherwise I think.
The things that make your blood rush, your heart race, the tips of your fingers slightly numb? I certainly want such things, your books were very inviting!
Only the ones that were lying out the day you weren't feeling well, it helped pass the time reading about the sensual artistry that comes with being tied to a cross stand and whipped. Very informative.
Aaaaah, those. I had been showing them to Merrill, she expressed some curiosity, though explaining what one gets out of being whipped and ordered around is difficult when the person you are explaining it to keeps interrupting to ask 'did THEY teach you this Zev?' and looking terribly sad all the while.
I can imagine. I don't think I've ever really thought so much about the ways one can stimulate the meatus of ones penis before now. You certainly favor the details, but I never understood...do you have those books for self instruction of for instructing others?
My education was more...hands on, so to speak, and not entirely voluntary. [ Honesty, plain and simple. ] But there are some books of instruction that I might recommend if you find yourself wanting.
I...cannot imagine. [Perhaps if he'd been orphaned in the alienage long enough then he might have been able to. There was a time when he was young and pretty and that was highly sought after no matter what blood ran in your veins.] Ha, to try on myself you mean? That might be a disaster.
Most humans can't. [ It is a sad possibility for most elves- and for all that were taken in by the Crows. Such is life. ] Truly? More for reading and learning what seems appealing, fuel for one's fantasies. There are some things you can do on your own but, like most kinds of sex, I find it is done best with a skilled partner.
I wasn't orphaned in the alienage long enough, so no.
I suppose books make better fuel for fantasies that desire fulfilment, I cannot imagine there is an elegant way to ask your partner where they stand on penis plugs and if that's something they would be willing to do. As an example.
It is not even so simple a thing as being an orphan in an alienage. I was raised in a brothel by whores and was in no danger of much of what I learned in the Crows. Now the theory of sex was something I learned early for practicality's sake, but it differs wildly from the truth of such things.
[ They'd been good to him- as much as they could be. As much as anyone in Antiva could be to an orphan. ]
Well one can always drop it casually into a conversation and see how such things go. Another is to outline something you would like to see or try in the framing of describing a fantasy.
[It's not pity, pity was like having someone spit on your cheek. He'd witnessed plenty of coerced encounters as a child that tainted his own ideas and for a long time he simply kept himself to himself. Beyond that he simply didn't know how to respond.]
You are not without your charms, Michel, you are perfectly capable of finding someone should you put your mind to it. But this is...edging into things I was hoping to avoid.
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Date: 2016-06-26 09:38 pm (UTC)[ This is- this is good. A man is welcome to take his pleasures where he liked. ]
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Date: 2016-06-26 10:00 pm (UTC)So I declined, naturally.
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Date: 2016-06-26 10:21 pm (UTC)[ Not at all settling that strangely possessive part of him either. Nope. ]
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Date: 2016-06-26 10:26 pm (UTC)[And he's supposed to be shy?]
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Date: 2016-06-26 11:34 pm (UTC)I suppose books make better fuel for fantasies that desire fulfilment, I cannot imagine there is an elegant way to ask your partner where they stand on penis plugs and if that's something they would be willing to do. As an example.
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Date: 2016-06-26 11:39 pm (UTC)[ They'd been good to him- as much as they could be. As much as anyone in Antiva could be to an orphan. ]
Well one can always drop it casually into a conversation and see how such things go. Another is to outline something you would like to see or try in the framing of describing a fantasy.
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Date: 2016-06-26 11:47 pm (UTC)[It's not pity, pity was like having someone spit on your cheek. He'd witnessed plenty of coerced encounters as a child that tainted his own ideas and for a long time he simply kept himself to himself. Beyond that he simply didn't know how to respond.]
I think it's a moot point really.
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Date: 2016-06-26 11:49 pm (UTC)[ Which is sex. Huzzah. ]
I suppose for the time being, it is.
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