Cade reflects on the question a moment, then nods wearily. "I'm just..." he muses, "...it's always. I'm lucky I'm not in a dungeon, I know. But just... every.. minute of every day, I'm reminded. That I can't be trusted, and that I'm worthless to the Order." His voice has descended into a bitter mumble. "I'm.. unforgivable."
Not usually the type to rant, even quietly, Cade shakes his head and composes himself, but slouches against the wall as if encumbered by a heavy weight. "In the abbey we'd just get switched," he remembers with a strained smirk, "and then it was over." And even then, he was a good kid; the irony of this creeps into his voice as he adds, "I only ever even got it once, and that was just because of Alistair." And now he's being tortured. Most people might not realize it, but for him, torture is exactly what it is.
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Date: 2016-04-13 09:44 pm (UTC)Not usually the type to rant, even quietly, Cade shakes his head and composes himself, but slouches against the wall as if encumbered by a heavy weight. "In the abbey we'd just get switched," he remembers with a strained smirk, "and then it was over." And even then, he was a good kid; the irony of this creeps into his voice as he adds, "I only ever even got it once, and that was just because of Alistair."
And now he's being tortured. Most people might not realize it, but for him, torture is exactly what it is.