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[ He cools his temper- takes a few deep, audible breaths. ]

Perhaps...if you were to explain why this was so important to you, I might consider it.

I don't know. It's the sort of thing I would have wanted if I could.

[ He still sounds subdued. And that's true, but it's not really why. After a moment to think he changes tack. ]

I don't want you leave you here without someone who knows you. Not like I do, of course. They'd need a long to catch up. But better than you usually let people. And someone who will drop everything and go after you if you're kidnapped or something. I'm sure Leliana would send people, and Isabela seems fun, but...

[ There are excuses on the tip of his tongue. That if he is captured he deserves it for not being able to prevent it, that he can likely escape on his own as he has done it before (that would get more of those exasperated sighs and worried looks he cannot stomach for the guilt), that no one needs to know him beyond what they already see, that Isabella is fun and that is all he wants, to have fun, not to be so serious and carve himself to the bone to hold out his blackened, beating heart for someone to scoff at again.

But the way Alistair says it. 'Leave you here'.

Even should the Crows come at him in force in the next month- the liklihood of Zevran perishing before Alistair is slim. He will be left. How he has come to loathe being left. ]

...I can promise nothing. [ He will not be so much a coward as to lie to Alistair over this. ] But- if it will ease your mind, I might make an attempt. Provided they are suitable.

[ Alistair brightens. It's nearly audible even before he talks. ]

No human nobles.

Please. They are fun to dishevel and ravish but a serious relationship? Impossible.

I'm half offended. A quarter offended? [ Not at all offended. He doesn't consider himself a noble except when it might be funny. ] What about non-human nobles? Dwarves have nobility.

You wouldn't let me ravish you, so you are stuck with a brother. How sad. It would have been marvelous, Alistair, I would have ruined you for all others.

[ He has found his humor once again. ]

I cannot think they would be willing to leave Orzammarr, and I enjoy the sky and sun too much to live below ground the rest of my life.

Oh, I believe that.

What about Dalish, if they wouldn't leave their clans?

You know how much I enjoy camping.

[ Which is to say, he doesn't. ]

If they wish to remain with their clans I would not meet them, as I do not wander that far.

I mean, all of the Dalish here will probably go back. Most of them. Maybe you could charm one of them out of it.

Have you met all of the Dalish here? Clan Ashara alone- Pel is solemn and sweet but better suited to the world she knows, Ellana is eager to please and far too curious for her own good, Beleth reminds me of myself years ago, Gavin is... Gavin. Cyril is quite handsome and has a sinful way about him but he, too, reminds me enough of myself to know better and Merrick? Reminds me of Taliesin. Not near so manipulative- not manipulative at all, but troubled enough to give me pause. Not to mention he is my student and the power imbalance there is more than enough for me to know to not.

Sina startles at the nearest gust of wind, Nahariel, her huntress sister is quite lovely but focused on protecting her Keeper, and Salem is a tragedy. Twisted Fate is, I think, Dalish but I do not know if he has a clan to return to, nor does he trust the world with his own name. I must applaud him his secrecy but this, too, is enough for me to know it will not work out in the long run.

Edited 2015-12-06 08:37 (UTC)

I've met Pel, Ellana, Gavin, and Beleth. [ And now he doesn't want to meet Merrick ever, good job. ] Gavin has the totally doomed thing with Maxwell Whatever, but the rest of them seem--I mean, I can't say you're wrong, but none of that is so bad.

If they wish to return to their Clan and I wish to return to Antiva? I would not make them choose. They have a home, Alistair. Much as Antiva City is mine, I have ever been able to make my way wherever I go. It is not a lifestyle that is comfortable to most Dalish as where I go tends to be places heavily populated by humans. If they did feel so foolish as to follow, they would resent me for it.

Or they would love you so much they wouldn't care.

It does not work like that for men like me, Alistair.

What's that supposed to mean?

...I am not someone people come to love. Not when they know me.

That's stupid, Zevran. I know you, and if I--you know--I'd have made you marry me ages ago. In a Chantry. A Chantry full of flowers and fainting, scandalized Sisters.

You know- well. More than anyone else living. [ More than anyone else he'd ever had this close save Rinna. ] Not everyone is near so forgiving.

I'm not forgiving. When His Absent Highness turns up I'm going to shove him in a ravine and leave him there for the bears, and if Loghain--

[ He still kind of wants to kill him. Is he allowed to kill him? He clears his throat instead of letting himself get sidetracked and angry. ]

You're a good man. That's something you're just going to have to accept. I'm sorry--I know you have your reputation and all of that, but facts are facts.

...I do not know if you are being sincere or if you are delusional- no. No, it is you. Of course you are being sincere.

[ He sighs, weary and long suffering. ]

There is nothing I can say that might deter you from that notion, is there?

You might be able to convince me that the last eleven years were an elaborate ruse, but only by actually killing me.

I gave my word I would only kill you if you asked it of me.

And you'll keep it, because you're a good man.

[ He wins. He also sighs. ]

If I ask you to anytime soon, make sure I'm actually corrupted and not just that sick of this blighted song. [ A pause. ] Ha. Blighted.

I know the signs as well as you, Alistair.

[ He dreads seeing them every day. ]

If you need a new song to listen to, I've picked up a few from Antiva that are quite amusing.

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