I was lonely. [Had she made that admission to Zevran or had it been around others? No matter, it was the truth and she'd said it then whether or not it had been believed at the time.
Yet that isn't an answer itself and she shifts, garments rustling, a quiet murmur from Kieran when she moves.]
Even so, sometimes I would set him down and allow him to scream. Sometimes that is all you can do - are there not times when you have wished to do the same? I wished to scream back at him too. Demanding to know what was wrong, what he wanted, why he would not stop. [This time it is her voice that catches in her throat, as if a hand has come to throttle her from within.] There is no shame in struggling. It will do him no harm to be set down for a time when you take time to collect yourself and breathe - Kieran has turned out well enough, has he not? You have many friends here to help, even for as long as it might take to take some air, to run a short errand. If you wish for them not to know then you are fortunate that I am able to change my shape.
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Yet that isn't an answer itself and she shifts, garments rustling, a quiet murmur from Kieran when she moves.]
Even so, sometimes I would set him down and allow him to scream. Sometimes that is all you can do - are there not times when you have wished to do the same? I wished to scream back at him too. Demanding to know what was wrong, what he wanted, why he would not stop. [This time it is her voice that catches in her throat, as if a hand has come to throttle her from within.] There is no shame in struggling. It will do him no harm to be set down for a time when you take time to collect yourself and breathe - Kieran has turned out well enough, has he not? You have many friends here to help, even for as long as it might take to take some air, to run a short errand. If you wish for them not to know then you are fortunate that I am able to change my shape.