Cade nods, and then immediately shakes his head, briefly cupping his face in his hands. He curls his fingers, takes a deep breath, then lowers them again. "I thought I'd rather die than stop being a Templar," he says, "...but instead I'm just... stuck somewhere in between both." He hugs himself again, glances at Zevran, and is suddenly struck by how pathetic he sounds.
"I'm sorry," he says quietly, "I... this isn't what we were talking about."