Cade is thrown for another loop by the fact that he's being given a choice at all. He watches Zevran dumbly for a moment, then looks away, trying to piece together a response that makes sense. He isn't even sure. It's around this moment that he realizes this is the first time in quite a long time that he hasn't entirely blamed himself for his own circumstances-- he is able to confidently recognize that someone else is, at least partially, at fault. And that he doesn't think he deserved it. Of course, the moment this thought crosses his mind, he doubles back on it; what if he's wrong, what if he's deluding himself? Is that why everyone hates him?
"...I don't know," he answers honestly. When in doubt, he always would, when it was just him. Now that a person outside himself is asking him to make such a judgment, he suddenly isn't comfortable doing so.
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Date: 2016-05-29 07:55 pm (UTC)It's around this moment that he realizes this is the first time in quite a long time that he hasn't entirely blamed himself for his own circumstances-- he is able to confidently recognize that someone else is, at least partially, at fault. And that he doesn't think he deserved it. Of course, the moment this thought crosses his mind, he doubles back on it; what if he's wrong, what if he's deluding himself? Is that why everyone hates him?
"...I don't know," he answers honestly. When in doubt, he always would, when it was just him. Now that a person outside himself is asking him to make such a judgment, he suddenly isn't comfortable doing so.