"Toying..." somehow it stung worse hearing it said like that, an act had a different connotation from a mask, people who wore masks could still be authentic at least. Michel had to turn his gaze to the floor to make sure the stinging in his eyes wasn't any more than that. There was no point to such a display even though he knew he could scarcely help it.
"It's not what I wish," Michel said, clearing his voice as he did, "it is what I have to do for the both of us. Can you claim that you would want to hold me knowing how I feel about you? No more than I can stop these feelings, it will just get harder. I can spend years of my life chasing you for just a taste of it, but if you do not feel it...how much love would go to waste?"
Michel exhaled slowly, knowing that Zevran would not want for him with his dance card as full as it undoubtedly was. It was a source of jealousy, but there was nothing for it, "it doesn't mean you will never be able to reach me if you need to, the sending crystals...you can always contact me if you wish it."
That sounded final enough for him and with that he tucked the parcel under his arm again and offered Zevran a nod, not quite able to look at him, but doing his level best.
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Date: 2016-05-01 09:40 pm (UTC)"It's not what I wish," Michel said, clearing his voice as he did, "it is what I have to do for the both of us. Can you claim that you would want to hold me knowing how I feel about you? No more than I can stop these feelings, it will just get harder. I can spend years of my life chasing you for just a taste of it, but if you do not feel it...how much love would go to waste?"
Michel exhaled slowly, knowing that Zevran would not want for him with his dance card as full as it undoubtedly was. It was a source of jealousy, but there was nothing for it, "it doesn't mean you will never be able to reach me if you need to, the sending crystals...you can always contact me if you wish it."
That sounded final enough for him and with that he tucked the parcel under his arm again and offered Zevran a nod, not quite able to look at him, but doing his level best.