Most people I know don't have mothers, nor fathers. Pel is the exception, but she has only met them twice. They don't really count.
[ How could they understand, when most of them lost their parents before they had even reached puberty? How could they understand the feeling of not just feeling like their parents might be disappointed beyond the veil, but the very real and very unambiguous disappointment of parent actually there?
But she does not say this--there's no point, and it's rude, besides. Instead, she thinks on what Zevran says. If she had no obligations? It's hard to even imagine. ]
I don't...know. I don't know what I'd do. I mean--I want things. Creators, I want so many things. But the things I want...People I can't have, concepts that I don't understand, paths that I can't take. I don't know if they're right for me, or if I've just...idealized what I can't have. That it's easier to feel things for someone that I know I couldn't be with, so it doesn't matter if they return the feelings or not.
--Does that make sense? I--I've never talked about this with anyone else. It's hard to put a lot of it into words.
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Date: 2016-04-15 03:40 am (UTC)[ How could they understand, when most of them lost their parents before they had even reached puberty? How could they understand the feeling of not just feeling like their parents might be disappointed beyond the veil, but the very real and very unambiguous disappointment of parent actually there?
But she does not say this--there's no point, and it's rude, besides. Instead, she thinks on what Zevran says. If she had no obligations? It's hard to even imagine. ]
I don't...know. I don't know what I'd do. I mean--I want things. Creators, I want so many things. But the things I want...People I can't have, concepts that I don't understand, paths that I can't take. I don't know if they're right for me, or if I've just...idealized what I can't have. That it's easier to feel things for someone that I know I couldn't be with, so it doesn't matter if they return the feelings or not.
--Does that make sense? I--I've never talked about this with anyone else. It's hard to put a lot of it into words.