[ That at least seems to have gotten Alistair to think rather than react- which had been his goal. Bring a smelly dog into his livingspace that he doesn't want, deal with the whole 'son' thing you don't want. In Zevran's mind? it's fair enough an exchange.
The whole mess- and it is a mess- could be resolved without ever mentioning who exactly Alistair is. Whether that is fair or not for the boy; he cannot say. Were he in Kieran's shoes...
At his age he'd already killed a man and been claimed by an overly possessive human boy his age. He cannot put himself in Kieran's shoes- in Morrigan's, or in Alistair's. He's taken too great care in his dalliances to prevent children.
Even now he's still on occasion surprised by Alistair's tactile nature, his hand slipping down into his hair without thought as much as the tableau is horribly foreign. Swap their positions and this is how he would sit with Taliesin many a day. Though it was not near so thoughtless, not near so safe. To be trusted with this- His voice catches in his throat in a way that has little to do with children. ]
I would be a horrible father. Being a parent requires sentiment and monogamy- and I am none too skilled in either.
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Date: 2016-02-01 12:12 am (UTC)The whole mess- and it is a mess- could be resolved without ever mentioning who exactly Alistair is. Whether that is fair or not for the boy; he cannot say. Were he in Kieran's shoes...
At his age he'd already killed a man and been claimed by an overly possessive human boy his age. He cannot put himself in Kieran's shoes- in Morrigan's, or in Alistair's. He's taken too great care in his dalliances to prevent children.
Even now he's still on occasion surprised by Alistair's tactile nature, his hand slipping down into his hair without thought as much as the tableau is horribly foreign. Swap their positions and this is how he would sit with Taliesin many a day. Though it was not near so thoughtless, not near so safe. To be trusted with this- His voice catches in his throat in a way that has little to do with children. ]
I would be a horrible father. Being a parent requires sentiment and monogamy- and I am none too skilled in either.